Living for the moment is something we should all do. Moments make up who we are. They are our memories, our experiences, our highs and lows. Living for the moment doesn't have to be the huge ones. It can be the small ones. A hug from a loved one, your childs laugh, their smile anything that shows they are alive.
I'm not trying to sound depressed far from it. I can't deny I have a sadness in me that will be with me that doesn't have to do with Natalia. It's for Aaliyah, not what she might not do but for the time she might not have. Please, please don't tell me to think positive because I do. I'm hoping she is one of the lucky ones. One of those who makes it to her mid thirties. Yes mid thirties those are the "lucky" ones. I'm hoping for at least that so she can experience as much as possible. I don't expect miracles. As I've said to my friends God isn't here to make my life perfect but to help me get through those hard times.
It's why we won't wait to do things. Why will try to let her experience as much as possible. Why we won't till she understands. Why even if she cries and makes a scene we may try to ride it out so we can stay. Don't hold us to the standards of a typical family because we never will be.
You often hear a parent shouldn't outlive their child. We have outlived one and stand a good chance of outliving another. We try to put it out of our heads but truth is it's always in the corner of our minds. We will more than likely face the same grief again. Till than we shall love our daughters and live for the moment.
